Oct. 13th, 2019 09:24 pm
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Just Lily from LJ, I hope to transition to both dreamwidth and lj, but I'm a bit of a techno luddite so this might be mostly placeholder for now, until I import things then post here and crosspost.
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Hello all! Well I am jumping on the bandwagon and moving to Dreamwidth. I opened this LJ for my ♥Rumbelle♥ and Robert Carlyle fangirling but OUAT is so depressingly awful I eventually ran out of fangirl steam. I have another LJ (now dreamwidth) that I use for personal life stuff. If you would like to follow me there then send a private message for the URL. Thanks for the friendship and fangirling fun :D I'm not going to be posting here anymore.
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I just read a great article that while it isn't about Robert Carlyle, it reminded me of him a lot. I liked this article because it speaks to what so fascinates me about Robert carlyle--the way everyone who meets him, whether it's people who knew him in Maryhill, or famous costars, or fans who bump into him on the street--gush about what an amazing guy he is. He is universally loved and he somehow always blows people away with how much of a gentleman he is. I was lucky enough to finally get a chance to follow him around a bit at Whistler without being observed myself, which I would write up but every time I try to mentally compose anything it falls too far short. Anyway, the reason I'm so obsessed (or ok, ONE of the reasons!) is what this NYT writer describes below:

SundayReview | Op-Ed Columnist The Moral Bucket List APRIL 11, 2015/The New York Times

"ABOUT once a month I run across a person who radiates an inner light. These people can be in any walk of life. They seem deeply good. They listen well. They make you feel funny and valued. You often catch them looking after other people and as they do so their laugh is musical and their manner is infused with gratitude. They are not thinking about what wonderful work they are doing. They are not thinking about themselves at all.

When I meet such a person it brightens my whole day. But I confess I often have a sadder thought: It occurs to me that I’ve achieved a decent level of career success, but I have not achieved that. I have not achieved that generosity of spirit, or that depth of character.

A few years ago I realized that I wanted to be a bit more like those people. I realized that if I wanted to do that I was going to have to work harder to save my own soul. I was going to have to have the sort of moral adventures that produce that kind of goodness. I was going to have to be better at balancing my life...

But if you live for external achievement, years pass and the deepest parts of you go unexplored and unstructured. You lack a moral vocabulary. It is easy to slip into a self-satisfied moral mediocrity. You grade yourself on a forgiving curve. You figure as long as you are not obviously hurting anybody and people seem to like you, you must be O.K. But you live with an unconscious boredom, separated from the deepest meaning of life and the highest moral joys. Gradually, a humiliating gap opens between your actual self and your desired self, between you and those incandescent souls you sometimes meet.


So a few years ago I set out to discover how those deeply good people got that way. I didn’t know if I could follow their road to character (I’m a pundit, more or less paid to appear smarter and better than I really am). But I at least wanted to know what the road looked like.

I came to the conclusion that wonderful people are made, not born — that the people I admired had achieved an unfakeable inner virtue, built slowly from specific moral and spiritual accomplishments.

If we wanted to be gimmicky, we could say these accomplishments amounted to a moral bucket list...

THE CONSCIENCE LEAP In most lives there’s a moment when people strip away all the branding and status symbols, all the prestige that goes with having gone to a certain school or been born into a certain family. They leap out beyond the utilitarian logic and crash through the barriers of their fears.

The novelist George Eliot (her real name was Mary Ann Evans) was a mess as a young woman, emotionally needy, falling for every man she met and being rejected. Finally, in her mid-30s she met a guy named George Lewes. Lewes was estranged from his wife, but legally he was married. If Eliot went with Lewes she would be labeled an adulterer by society. She’d lose her friends, be cut off by her family. It took her a week to decide, but she went with Lewes. “Light and easily broken ties are what I neither desire theoretically nor could live for practically. Women who are satisfied with such ties do not act as I have done,” she wrote.

She chose well. Her character stabilized. Her capacity for empathetic understanding expanded. She lived in a state of steady, devoted love with Lewes, the kind of second love that comes after a person is older, scarred a bit and enmeshed in responsibilities. He served her and helped her become one of the greatest novelists of any age. Together they turned neediness into constancy.

Commencement speakers are always telling young people to follow their passions. Be true to yourself. This is a vision of life that begins with self and ends with self. But people on the road to inner light do not find their vocations by asking, what do I want from life? They ask, what is life asking of me? How can I match my intrinsic talent with one of the world’s deep needs?

Their lives often follow a pattern of defeat, recognition, redemption...pain and suffering. But they turn those moments into occasions of radical self-understanding — by keeping a journal or making art.


"...This is a philosophy for stumblers. The stumbler scuffs through life, a little off balance. But the stumbler faces her imperfect nature with unvarnished honesty, with the opposite of squeamishness. Recognizing her limitations, the stumbler at least has a serious foe to overcome and transcend. The stumbler has an outstretched arm, ready to receive and offer assistance...stumblers occasionally experience moments of joy. There’s joy in freely chosen obedience to organizations, ideas and people. There’s joy in mutual stumbling. There’s an aesthetic joy we feel when we see morally good action, when we run across someone who is quiet and humble and good, when we see that however old we are, there’s lots to do ahead.

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liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Blonde Belle)
Things that were sublimely wonderful about last night’s OUaT, Ep 4x19 (Gifs ganked from tumblr, not mine)

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liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Rumbelle dance)
Life is getting away from me...a very belated happiest of birthdays to the perfectly lovely [ profile] ultra_fic

Spoilers for S4B OUAT )
liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Lacey Blue)
Spoilery Gifs (also, swoon warning) )
liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Rumbelle dance)

I'm beyond caring caring about anything except how utterly and completely Robert Carlyle STOLE this whole show tonight.
liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Docks Rumbelle Happy)
And now he's dancing you guys! Apologies to [ profile] just_ustas for stealing these pics but they make me so happy I need them on my LJ ♥

Maybe it was making/directing/producing Barney that gave him some balance back? I dunno, I just love that Robert Carlyle is having fun with OUaT filming again in a way that hasn't been as evident as it was since he was the imp in S1. Look, he even has Rumple!flourish!hands!
Very slight filming spoilers )
liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Docks Rumbelle Happy)
Oh gosh you guys...I needed this today! I was just agreeing with a friend on here about fangirling being an antidote to depression and hoo boy this was like manna from heaven.

So so SOOO cute! The new LJ format isn't displaying the cut text, so click below if you don't mind seeing OUaT set pic spoilers from filming today.

Set pic spoilers from filming today )
liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Rumbelle)
(Spoilers for all aired OUaT eps, through the first half of season 3)

I'm terrible at keeping track of non-linear storytelling, and this is hampering my ability to write early!Rumbelle, which is one of favorite kinds of fic. So (unless anyone knows if someone else has already done this and I can just borrow theirs) here is a clumsy work in progress timeline, for my own reference. (Any and all help/corrections VERY much appreciated!)
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liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (puppy eyes)
I can so see him looking at Belle, who is blushing so much it takes away some of his own nerves. I need some Full Monty Anyelle!

monty fairytalesasoldastime

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liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (I want my hair like this!)
Ignore me, I just need to put this somewhere because plotbunnies!

SERIOUS MATTERS TO DISCUSS: do you think Rumbelle's having hot sex in the show or are they still ~~~pure~~~


You know, I always liked to think they were, but I wasn’t sold on the idea they were knocking boots until The New Neverland. They just didn’t have a whole lot of time to get to that point in their relationship. I know people used the fact that they were obviously sleeping in the same bed in “The Crocodile” as proof, but I figure that after 30 years in solitary, Belle probably just didn’t want to sleep alone. I can also see Rumple being really hesitant about doing anything to “hurt” Belle so I don’t think they would have immediately jumped into bed together. After “The Crocodile” they broke up and then were taking things slow. They were getting back to a solid relationship but then “The Outsider” happened and Belle was memory wiped, then Lacey. I am in the camp that Rumple and Lacey didn’t sleep together, just because I don’t think Rumple would have felt comfortable with that, especially if Belle were still a virgin. (Although I fully embrace Golden Lace fics that take place during that time cause holy hell are they hot!). Once Belle got her memory back, Rumple was off to Neverland. So they really didn’t have much time for getting down.

Then came The New Neverland. There was implied Rumbelle reunion sexiness up the wazoo in that episode. Belle putting Rumple’s clothes on him (after I assume helping to take them off). Their little flirty exchange “perfect” “thank you” “you’re welcome”. Then the kissing cutting away to dwarves toasting. The insanely good mood Rumple was in the next day when he gave Charming the dreamshade cure. All signs point to Rumbelle sex!

Did they do it before then? I don’t know. It’s possible. But as of New Neverland, I think Rumbelle definitely took their relationship to the next level. Because this is a family show on ABC, I think our only definitive answer to that question will be if they get married or have a baby (or both).

Yep…..I never thought they slept together in the Crocodile because if they had, why would Gold put on his suit and tie to go down to his “lab”? No, I always felt he just lay next to Belle and comforted her.

I also didn’t think he and Lacey did much beyond kissing for several reasons..but I don’t want to get into that….

Oh in TNN, they had sex ALL the time, lol….. they did it, then they got dressed, then again (ditched the party, too, lol)… the morning, lol. It couldn’t have been made clearer. Aside from Gold being incredibly happy, he was breathless and his hair was completely mussed…….. If they hadn’t been accosted by the Charmings, I’m pretty sure Rumbelle would have gone back to the pink house for some more, lol

throat porn
liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Blonde Belle)
I was just chatting with a new Rumbelle friend about the different OUaT actors, and I got to thinking about something Robert Carlyle once said when comparing the difference between US actors and UK actors--he said in the UK actors are expected to bring something to filming other than just having learned their lines. UK actors generally expect to have more of a defined idea of their character, and how the scenes will play out, whereas in the US, actors are more of a blank slate and expect the director and show runner will tell them how to play it.

That's probably an over-generalization, and not meant as a judgment that one way is better than the other. (Also, it's paraphrased from my awful memory, so hopefully I didn't get that backwards or am otherwise horribly misquoting my beloved RC!)
Cut for mild spoilers thru aired eps of OUaT season 3b )
liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Rumbelle)
rum sex

I have a new Dark Castle Rumbelle fic! Droit du Seigneur

It’s not explicit really at all (yet, anyway!) just rated ‘mature’ for themes.
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Spoilers through all aired eps in season 3 OUaT

I watch this show for Robert Carlyle. Along the way I fell in love with Emilie de Ravin. I think Lana Parilla and Colin O'Donoghue are fabulous too.

I'm not in love with the OUaT writing, however, so bail now if you want only positivity! I like watching Colin on screen. I think he's a good actor, and he's delectable to look at. I want to like Hook, but I can't--to do so would be checking my integrity at the door.

JMO: I just want to try to put my finger on my problem with Hook, and how his character is being handled.

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liliannabelle: by ultra_fic (Plunkelle Happy)
Name/Age/Location: Lily/30s/East coast America

Favorite OUAT Characters: LOL, Rumbelle, obvs! I also love Lana, I mean Regina is a bitca but I love it when Lana is on screen. Ditto for Hook--LOVE the actor, not so much the character. Oh and young Cora ♥

Favorite OUAT Episode: Skin Deep (predictable, I know!)

Favorite OUAT Quote: Oh crikey...uh anything with Rum saying "dearie" makes my heart flutter happily... I love Belle's proclamations about love and steadfastness, LOVE when Rum said "that's the last time I don't listen to you" :)

Why do you ship Rumbelle? Mostly, it's the actors who breathed such life into the pairing, but I also love how the fairytale was handled in Skin Deep, with the kinda forced situation but then he was a perfect gentleman--well, okay, there was a dungeon, but he didn't try to *hit* on her, and how she won his heart, not by being weak and feminine-wibbly, but by being so strong, so irrepressibly Belle

Any other OUAT 'ships? Honestly, I ship Rum with anyone. I can see Emma/Gold, Cora/Rumple, lots of things. I kinda want some UST for Belle with Hook just so she can reject him and he has to come to regret all the ways in which he hurt her.
It's my secret shame, and I wouldn't want them to get together romantically, but I surprised myself with how much I REALLY want Bae to step up and protect Belle when Rum is absent.

Other fandoms: Buffy, Angel, Star Trek, Battlestar, West Wing, Hunger Games, Doctor Who, Breaking Bad, Downton Abbey...but really I have only the time and effort to be a *focused* fangirl for one thing at a time, and right now it's OUaT for Rumbelle!

Friending policy: Love 'em! Friend away! ♥ I always friend back, but I work long hours and have young kids so forgive me if I don't always keep up with the friend's list/dash.

What can we expect from your journal? Right now it's just a fandom LJ, so anything I want to remember or "have" from Rumbelle. Occasional fanfic too as I try to find time to finish my many Rumbelle and Anyelle WIPs! I actually don't post often, so I won't clog up your flist! But I do try to comment when I can, LJ is more my medium than tumblr, I like the communicative dimension. I like the pretty things on tumblr but I can't pretend to understand quite how it works.

Anything else?: I know my Rumbelle fics are few, but I've written a lot in other fandoms (and in what feels like other lives!) and had quite a following. This journal is a fresh start, because while I met some really lovely fangirl friends, it got a bit claustrophobic. I think I'm more comfortable being a nobody!
I LOVE Robert Carlyle. I get a bit tetchy when OUaT isn't all it could be in terms of writing because he deserves better, so I'm not always very nice about OUaT as a show. I won't spew negativity in your LJ, I promise (or at least it will be under a cut!) I'm just watching for Rumbelle. I love meta conversations about how things could be BETTER written.

Also, err, watch for warnings on possible future kinky!Rumbelle smut fic!


Dec. 19th, 2013 12:20 pm
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I love fangirling, without it I would never find new music ♥


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